More Prayers for Jimmy

A mother hurts most when her children hurt, are in danger, or are sad.  Today Jimmy finally heard from his doctor about his ultrasound test.  I am praising God that they didn't tell him to rush to a hospital because of something serious, but they didn't say everything was fine either.  I had thought that since he didn't hear anything that they found nothing.  But today they said the results were in and that he needed to make a follow up appointment with his doctor.  They were looking for signs of cancer and I would think that if they found anything suspicious they would have called him right away.  So now I worry that there may be something else wrong.



Protect me, God, when I take refuge in you - Psalm 16:1

Praying for Jimmy

My middle son, Jimmy, has become quite a negative person these days.  This saddens me because he has always been charismatic and a joy to be around.  I know that he is his own person but as his mother I feel responsible for the man he is becoming.  I wish I could do something to make him feel better.  I used to describe him as:

• fun loving
• hyper
• busy
• talkative
• able to solve any challenge if given enough time
• smart
• funny
• creative

Now he is unhappy, mean, and angry.  I believe several things have caused this change.  

• unhealthy relationships
• alcohol
• unmedicated ADHD

I pray that I get to see the happy person that I know he truly is!  He has an appointment to see his psychiatrist this week and I pray that he is able to get some help.  

Praying...

Things That Bug Me

Everyone has things that just bug them!  Sometimes I come across situations, read something, or hear something that just sets me off!  I'm not a person that rants or raves or screams and shouts about things that upset me...  I just think and think and think about them.  I'm old enough to know that just because I voice my objections about something it is not going to change someone's mind about it or make a situation any different.  That is the main reason I don't make a big scene about things but, it doesn't stop me from over-analyzing it in my mind. lol

Here are some things that drive me nuts:

1. Racist or sexist remarks
2. Commercials that use sex to sell things
3. People who act like they are better than others
4. People/businesses/organizations that make promises to get what they want and then don't follow through
5. Unkind Christians
6. People who spit
7. People who criticize my children/husband/family  (I'm the only one allowed to do this!)
8. Drunks
9. Parents who put boyfriends or girlfriends ahead of their children
10. Mean people

Whew!  Glad to get that off my chest!  lol  Maybe this blogging thing will be good for getting out the things that bother me without bothering anyone with it and driving them nuts!

Angie

Just Me

Well... here it goes.  My first attempt at blogging!  I have titled my blog as "It's Just Me..." because I'm nothing special.  I'm not saying that to get sympathy.  Of course I am special to my husband, my kids, and of course my parents but, other than that I can easily go unnoticed in a crowd.  Even the unique things about me can go unnoticed or unrecognized.  It's not good or bad, it is just the way it is.

I hope someone out there enjoys my blog, but even if they don't, I hope to get something out of doing it.  I REALLY love to talk so I think I will enjoy blogging.  I may not know how many, if any, people will read my blogs.  That's okay though because when I talk sometimes people aren't really listening anyway. I know this is true because to be honest, sometimes I don't listen when people are talking to me.  I don't do this on purpose...  I believe it has to do with my self diagnosed ADD.

There are things that make me unique from others.  However, I feel like these are relatively boring things.

1. I am biracial. (My mother is from Okinawa, Japan and my father is from Jackson, Tennessee)
2. I've lived in about six states and in Japan.
3. I have been married and divorced three times...to the SAME man.
4. I had my first child between my junior and senior years of high school (my parents kicked me out and I was on my own)
5. I've dealt with severe depression and anxiety
6. I've been "unofficially" diagnosed with Trigeminal Neuralgia
7. I earned my college degree in elementary education when I was 40.

Well... if anyone reads this I hope they come back to learn about the things that make me "just me".

Angie